Dad had cooked homemade chili and grilled cheese sandwiches for lunch. Unfortunately, I had my mind set on other fare. I was over at my parent's to get cokes and cigarettes. Mom keeps a big sack of 20 oz Coca-Colas on her car's backseat and usually keeps two cartons of cigarettes in her closet.
"Do you want your 3 dollars?" mom asked.
Just as I was slipping the money in my pant's pocket, dad poked his head in the door. It was a damn close call and he would have ripped my mother a new one if he saw her giving me money.
Does anyone else see the absurdity in all this? I will be 37 years old in April. I keep reminding myself that I voluntarily gave up the money this last time. I just didn't feel secure in my sobriety. It makes it a less bitter pill to swallow.
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That hyper-vigilance is an unfortunate side effect of loving an addict. I wish it were different...and hope it improves for you and your family over time.
Just keep looking at the sobriety counter on your blogsite. It's impressive, Andrew.
Sir:
I guess I would say I am one who does find "absurdity" in the scenario you mention. I believe you are far more capable and creative than you allow yourself to be currently, and it feels very harsh for you to be under such a tight leash.
I worry that you may have substituted Klonopin for your creative spirit and robust desiring for freedom.
You are a great fellow, and I wish you really saw that in yourself, for then I believe you would be able to soar to heights of success and robust living beyond your imagination.
As always, your friend,
PipeTobacco
http://frumpyprofessor.blogspot.com
There is absurdity in everyone's life Andrew.
Sir Andrew,
You know that Royalty never carries money! They have minions that handle those unfortunate details for them!
side story: My dad was a very famous race car and race boat builder back in the 50's, 60's and 70's. We had built a few boats for the Secret Service and King Hussein of Jordan liked them so much that he ordered several. I used to giggle every time I sent them invoices for boats, engines, parts - whatever . . . they were addressed to "The Keeper Of The Royal Purse", Amman, Jordan!
So - I guess we should just title your Mom as THE KEEPER OF THE ROYAL PURSE!
Find humor where you can - and just think . . . you're $3 closer to buying that new game you wanted!
Sleep well,
Granny in Florida
Lots of good comments...all of them true. I am still here, just struggling in my own life at the moment, but I still read and I'm glad you are doing well.
Your parents are doing the best they can and so are you. Hang in there.
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