My batting average is terrible, though. I think Wendy even has me on block now or she is not following me anymore. My ex-wife has me on block and Laura only talks to me if she needs to ask me a question about her medications to be relayed to my father.
I had felt that I was at the point I could have a serious relationship again. I guess my social anxieties are still getting in the way. It is my social gaffes and cluelessness that have gotten me in this situation so far. I thought if I actively and very forwardly pursued Wendy it would woo her to my side. That didn’t work so well. She got aggravated with me about it and pushed me away. I was too forward to the point of being pushy I think. I guess she thought I was the stalker type of guy which is nothing like the guy I am. I was just gambling I guess and I lost. I was dealing with a strong willed redheaded woman.
And yes, I can really tell I need my medications tonight. Dad will arrive at around 9 or 9:30pm I hope with tonight’s dosage and I will have to wait until 9am in the morning for my injection in the old derrière. He also has to buy groceries tonight for him and mom and I am so hoping he comes by here first.
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I just checked, Wendy doesn't have you blocked. If she did, she would not still appear in your friends list. Your ex wife, I can't tell as I don't know her name.
My suggestion is you speak to your therapist about this and take her direction. Maybe weekly therapy is in order to become more socialized? I don't know since I'm not you, but it does sound like an obstacle you cannot overcome on your own.
Also, take a moment to do a mini inventory and see if your paranoia is sparking up a notch. Your injection is tomorrow after all. You may just be low on your go-go juice ;)
Thank you for the words of encouragement, Christina! I do appreciate it.
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