I am having a good day.   I fixed my ex-wife’s laptop that I loaned her.   You could no longer dial in to her internet account.   I worked for hours and finally got it to dial in.   I had to reinstall WindowsXP professional and upgrade all her drivers.    I also took the hours to download any updates to windows and install them.   She is ready to go and fit for the internet.   I feel accomplished in getting this done and getting her back online.   It took forever though.   I still don’t know what the hell she did to keep her from dialing in but I fixed it.
I am feeling better after my shot and feel much calmer.   I want to escape though and the feeling is overwhelming.   I want to get back to the woods and live there for awhile.   I want to live without to realize how much I have.   I want to cook on a fire and sleep in my sleeping bag.   I struggle with this.   I feel I do not fit in society and that I must escape.   I want to run off and live a solitary existence.
I am going to head out to my campground tonight and just take it easy.   My next appointment is not until 2:30 PM tomorrow so I have plenty of time to get back.   I am going to just rest, listen to my radio, build a big fire and watch its glow from the perimeter.   I want to just sit there and listen to the crackle of the fire and the warmth on my face.    I want to smell the smoke from the fire and hear the moans and barks from the tree frogs, leopard frogs, and bull frogs.     I want to hear that far off whip-O-will and that Owl.  I want to feel one with nature.
Well, I must go; I have much to do and many miles to hike before it gets dark.   I just need to get away for a bit and take it easy.
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