Saturday, October 27, 2007

Damn Good News

One of my biggest worries about going to A.A. was not having that dollar for the donation basket. It has kept me from going many times. My mother is going to give me a dollar a day for meetings.

"Don't spend it on mouthwash," she told me. "And how can I be sure you are not going to save it up to buy beer?"

"Mom," I said. "You are just going to have to trust me. I had five bucks and didn't spend it on beer. It's a start."

"Don't tell your father I am doing this," she then said. "He would be very, very angry at me."

"Thank you," I said holding a glossy, new one dollar bill. "You went a long way to helping me stay sober."

It will be such a relief at meeting's end to have something to contribute.

13 comments:

Kelly Jene said...

Well God bless your mom! Not only will this give you some added confidence and security, but you donating that dollar will go to help someone else conquer their addiction.

Did you enjoy your steak?

madamspud169 said...

Have you ever tried to explain to your dad how that being sober is only one part of sobriety. You also have to be able to have a little money & have the control to not buy alcohol or mouthwash. Surely it's a step you need to do.
Not having the finances to drink isn't the same as willfully not choosing to.
Maybe someone from AA or a counsellor could explain to him why he needs to let you take the next step.

Your dad is doing a wonderful job & he's trying to keep you safe & well the only way he knows how but for both your sakes he needs to step back a little & I think you may need help convincing him of that.

abbagirl74 said...

Moms are awesome. Your mom is a wonderful, gentle lady.

Anonymous said...

Just a question. I've been reading your blog for months and you always seemed to have plenty of money. You frequently went out to eat breakfast, often treating others, described these wonderful, big homemade meals you would make for yourself and Rosa. Wasn't your father still managing your money then? What has changed?

Beautifully Profound said...

I think he was making money off of the ads on his blog. But someone screwed that up for him so I don't think he makes as much now.

Cheryl said...

Three new good posts. Will you go back to the GA meeting? Ken sounded like a good guy. I'm looking for a new sponsor for you, you know!

I'm off to the mall with Em. I'll write later. The latte with an extra shot will have me up till the wee hours.

Josie Two Shoes said...

Leave it to a loving mom to understand your need for a dollar for the meetings! She's showing you a great deal of trust in doing this, so your task is to live up to it! Temptation is a tough thing but I have every confidence you can show her and yourself that you can handle money responsibly. You've done it many times before!

Anonymous Boxer said...

it's funny how sometimes the "smallest" gesture can be the biggest. You have a good Mom.

mapiprincesa! said...

Warm fuzzies!

savannah said...

one day at a time, sugar...

Summer said...

What Savannah said!

justLacey said...

Your mom really loves you and she is probably the one that understands your struggles the best. Not to mention she lives under the constant scrutiny of your dad.

Claudia said...

Your mom knows... very cool of her.